I'm Not Sure Today
A film by Siraya Saicheua
"A beautifully shot, deeply intimate, cinematic moment between two women. I'M NOT SURE TODAY allows the viewer to be a part of a delicate moment in pain, fear, regret and courage. All I can say is: TWO women on screen at the same time throughout the entire film! LIFE! Don't miss it!"
-Premstar Santana, MOONFAZE FEMINIST FILM JOURNAL
An anxiety ridden woman is about to attend her ex’s wedding, but becomes caught up in her own fears of being incomplete, she shares a moment of doubt and uncertainty about her undetermined future with her friend.
A note from the filmmaker:
Last year I found out that my ex was getting married, this was the guy who was my longest relationship to date lasting for two tumultuous years. He was good to me and I was to him for the first year of our relationship, then things went south and I broke his heart thinking that I can do so much better. I didn’t. Flash forward to the next eight years of my life post-serious relationship and I’ve spent them alone and unable to find any man that fitted my definition of ‘the perfect partner’ (or even if it exists?) Before I knew it, I’m approaching the big 3-0, angsty and uncertain about how my life will go from here. I’m unsure about whether what I felt towards my ex was true love (which I’ve lost) or whether if it was just me feeling the walls cave in from societal pressure telling me that there’s a need to be married before reaching a certain age. So I’ve made a film that serves as a testament to my fears and inadequacy of being a complete woman; my fear of womanhood, my unwillingness to compromise, a remorse for past decisions, my discontent for the present and my uncertainty for the future.
-Siraya Saicheua, Filmmaker